The First Break

I kiss you goodnight, because I love you,

I tell you you're right, because I love you.

I build your self esteem, because I love you,

I call you my dream, because I love you.

The "forever" promises make me cower, because you hurt me,

I cherished every god-forsaken hour, but then you hurt me.

Now I struggle to keep the tears at bay, because you hurt me,

And it's for your loneliness I pray, because you hurt me.

I cry myself to sleep, because I hate you,

And your secrets I still keep, although I hate you.

The apology, I refuse to receive, because I hate you,

But I can't bring myself to ever leave, because I still love you.