Diary of Juliet

Nothing stops the sadness,

Nothing dulls the pain.

Nothing makes this go away,

I'll always be insane.

I'm sorry I won't be out today,

I'm sorry if I swore.

I'm sorry that I'll never be,

The way I was before.

I've had it with the promises,

I've had it with the lies.

I've had it, and I just don't care,

If everyone else dies.

If I could be with him one day,

If I could stop the tears.

If I could just be happy,

I could soften all your fears.

But nothing stops this madness,

But nothing dulls this ache.

But nobody would stop me if,

It was my life to take.

The First Break

I kiss you goodnight, because I love you,

I tell you you're right, because I love you.

I build your self esteem, because I love you,

I call you my dream, because I love you.

The "forever" promises make me cower, because you hurt me,

I cherished every god-forsaken hour, but then you hurt me.

Now I struggle to keep the tears at bay, because you hurt me,

And it's for your loneliness I pray, because you hurt me.

I cry myself to sleep, because I hate you,

And your secrets I still keep, although I hate you.

The apology, I refuse to receive, because I hate you,

But I can't bring myself to ever leave, because I still love you.